today

Today was a big day.

A day I feared would never come.

Rather than go into all the details {and to keep my blood at a healthy temperature} I will just say this:

One day about three and a half months ago Anna went to preschool. That was the last time she went to preschool, or Church, or to play at a friend's house, or to my own mother's house or ANYwhere with out me right by her side.

This poor little girl has been in a world of hurt and fear. For the last 3 months I have been beside myself.

I have prayed.

I have talked to many friends and family members.

I have read books.

I have searched the internet.

I pleaded with her.

I cried.

I tried and tried to get her to do things, to go places, with out me...

It didn't work.

For months it did not work. I finally gave up. I was reassured by loved ones that she will bounce back. She will return to her vibrant self who loves to learn and loves to be around people. I wanted to believe it would happen but it was hard to see any end in sight when I was blinded by the present day.

Today however was different. Today I took a little girl to preschool. She was brave. Her bottom lip quivered and she fought to keep the tears in her eyes as she silently assured me she was going to be okay. I lovingly handed over to a friend I trust and walked away.

Inside her tiny back pack was her special Scriddle and a stopwatch that had a timer set for when I would return.

Today. she. did. it. She was away from me at preschool for 2 hours and she loved it.

Today I saw the return of a once brave little girl.

I am grateful for Today.